rants of a beggar

Uncertainty creeps into my mind as a fog gently rolling in..
A path that once shown clear.. now lay hidden beneath me..
All that has passed.. now becomes questioned..

“Was I wrong? Why am I here? Where do I go?”

Words wrestle in my heart… Insecurities wreak havoc in my mind..
Peace flees.. Mountains escalate..
Tasks that were once simple.. now become unbearable.
Each step forward gives more reason to give up.

Yet in the most deafening of circumstances.. a still voice arises

“Why do you anguish for a life that is not your own?”

Fertilizer..  It always finds a way to hit the fan..

It seems prominently to be the aftermath of a “some what good” intention combined with ill sought advisement .. which sadly concludes to an unwelcome response..

Yet even “it” seems to serve a purpose..
Conflicts are inevitable, resolutions are not.. Our response to “it”, is what ultimately shapes and defines our character.. It’s easy to turn and burn the bridges you leave behind.. Yet that ineptly equips you for conflicts that soon arise..

Reconciliation doesn’t require fondness.. however it does call for courage..
Yet.. it is that very courage through the adversity, that foster growth and maturity.